We sat inches away, but couldn’t see each other. If I reached my hand across the table, I could find my husband’s hand, still and uncertain. A few moments before, our server had instructed us to form a human chain, one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of us. We complied and then transitioned from the bright sunshine of early afternoon into pitch black.
We were about to dine in the dark.
Before the server had pulled the night-vision goggles down to her eyes; before we tentatively shuffle-stepped through a deceivingly large room, we were instructed to place any light-emitting devices into a locker. Our phones, watches, and even Fitbit went into the locker.
The blackness was palpable. After sitting at our table for a few moments, I was able to detect the hint of red from a faraway exit sign if I strained my eyes as hard as I could. We began exploring the table with our hands, finding our plates and silverware. We could hold our hands inches away from our eyes and not see a thing.
Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you were completely unable to see? Maybe you weren’t physically blind, but you were paralyzed by lack of information about your surroundings. Were you expected to lead without knowing the team, or end-goal, or the culture?
In those situations, we strain to see any glimmer of light. We may be able to make limited movements in the constraints of our circumstances, but we are far from functioning freely. (I did manage to sneak my husband’s glass from his side of the table and drink it all without him noticing!)
We are not always going to have clarity in our lives. One of the things I’m passionate about is fighting for clarity – not only for myself, but for those I work with and lead. And yet there will still be times when the details and path are murky.
Sometimes that is God growing my faith and ability to trust Him. Sometimes it is just a part of life. Either way, I have a choice to make – I can allow myself to become incapacitated, or I can choose to keep making the small movements that I’m able to.
You know what I’ve learned?
Small movements pave the way for the largest growth.
If you’re struggling with feeling in the dark, and being blinded by uncertainty, it’s time to choose whether you’ll freeze or fight for every inch of momentum.